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June 3, 2009

30th & 31st May 2009

These two dates have very deep meaning to my life... One of it was a very dear bro of mine's wedding. The other one is my own sister's wedding.

These were so much love in Galvin and Charmaine's wedding... I have the opportunity to be share my life with this bro... our paths didn't cross even though we were in the same church. I got to know this bro thus his website. As I read his blog and listen to his songs... my heart was connected with it... Here I see a bro in christ who went thru so much yet still stand firm in his belief in God... His life encouraged me to relook and examine my own walk...

Though we seldom meet up for long chats, everything when we do meet our lives are just connected... there was this special bonding that we have that we cannot explain. Over the years, I seen the bro grow from a boy to a man who really fear the Lord and take every opportunity to witness to the youth...

From him, I see God's footprints... in the most difficult period of his life... God was there to hold and pull him thru each and every one of them... from his life, I learnt to appreciate life's little things...

I felt so blessed to be involved in his wedding as xiong di... even though I have to lose the entire right arm's hair... I will do it... without much thought...

As I watched the thanksgiving video... I couldn't stop be teared to know that he is going to marry a beautiful help mate... Thanks Galvin and Charmaine for allowing me to be part of your lives.

After a hectic 30th May, the next day is my sister's wedding... I didn't really sleep as I was busy preparing some stuff for her wedding... I was assigned to open the car door, take video, aid my parents and my blind uncle's transportation...

I was really exhausted after the morning gate crashing... and I had to rush back to Jac's place to unload all Galvin & Charmaine's wedding decor (we lost our tool box and a box of ribbons which someone remove and store it somewhere in church) so that I can space to fetch my parents, Jac & uncle to the ROM and banquet venue...

When I was at the ROM venue... I couldn't believe that my sister is going to be married... all these while I was still thinking my sister is young... my memory stuck at her in her teen years... As I stood there witnessing her signing the marriage cert... it dwell upon me that she is already an adult, no longer the sister that I used to fight and quarrel...

For many years, we didn't really are in good terms... we couldn't see eye ball to eye ball... it was much later when Jac came into the picture that our relationship improved... our parents never really taught us how to love each other... I realised that in the years that I showed concern and love for my sister, it was demonstrated in a wrong manner... I am still learning to love her through my words and action...

I am really glad that I was rope to be involved in her wedding... I really appreciate her patience... I was extremely happy that she married a wonderful and understanding husband whom I think is truly a loving man who can provide her with love and happiness...

Kor, is very much happy and excited for you that you have entered the other phase of life... thanks for allowing me to be part of your planning for your marriage... I just want to say that I LOVE YOU very much my dear sister... all these years, I am sorry that I wasn't there to be a friend and brother... pls forgive me for my shortcoming.

There is another significant with the date 30th May... as it was my 5th anniversary with Jac... I didn't have time to buy her a gift... I wanted very much to do something for her... but time wasn't at my side... I think she probably oso forgot that we need to make time to celebrate this special occasion... I just want to leave a footnote that... many times, I wasn't the best boyfriend you can have... I have many shortcomings... my mind is always on somethings else... I couldn't really lead you well as a leader... I couldn't give you my undivided attention...

I still am very thankful for you for being a patience and big-hearted girlfriend who is always readily forgive me and give me time to reflect... you gave so much love into this relationship... you are always there for me when I face setback in my business and my ministry... thanks for providing me support emotional support when I needed...

You are the best that I can ever have...

Happy 5 years! My dear Jac, I love you!


Raymond dreaming at 02:06:14 AM

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April 15, 2009

Weddings

This year is one of the most weddings invitation that I will have to attend... Out of the numerous one of them... I will be Xiong De for 5 of them... after which I will be the groom for my own wedding... O.o

Seriously, I don't know if I can have the energy to last thru the end of the year... there are just so many things under my care... ... Coming May I will be so busy, I have 3 weddings back to back... two Xiong De in a row... I think I can work part time as Xiong De already... hahaha...

However, I am very thankful that over the years I have fostered so many deep friendship with these people...

As I looked at some of their website... it brought back many fond memories we shared... we were naive teens then... doing silly things, doing the most daring things on earth and the world seems relative unreal... now all of us are going to get married and start our own families... gosh, this is so surreal...

I pray that many of you will grow deep relationship with Jesus and your wife to be... for those whom have yet know Him... I pray that one day you will experience the wonderful fulfilled life like I am experiencing... and you will grow in relationship with the Lord Jesus...



Raymond dreaming at 02:12:06 AM

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April 6, 2009

My family, my father...

I was surfing the net when i come across several meaningful video clips that reminds me of my own family... more specifically, my father.

The person who molded most part of my life is my dad... like the girl in the first clip... we didn't come from a well to do family... there were so many things which I wish I can have toys, games, etc. My dad out of his love for me bought me some of them to reward me when I did well in my studies. I knew he had to spend less on his own to save up enough money to buy them...

As I grew older, I realised that it is gd to have them but even I do not have not... it is perfectly fine. As much as he is imperfect, he has already given me the most valuable thing in the world... His love for me.

Like my Heavenly father, He had given me everything I needed for life...

"Thank you Lord for giving me my dad to show me your love through him."


Raymond dreaming at 08:31:12 PM

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April 3, 2009

It has been awhile since I last update... gosh, so many things happened in march that I hardly have time to breath...

I wished I have more than 24 hrs a day to do all my stuff... so many things needed my action... but I'm glad that I was able self manage my time.

As of date, I have already booked my dinner banquet... one big tick off my list. I couldn't book the church because most churches are not open for 2010 booking until this yr Jun. Haiz, if possible I would like to settle it as well... now need to focus on the small details like PG, VG, wedding bands, etc.

it's now T - 10 more mths till the big day... woohoo...



Raymond dreaming at 12:17:59 AM

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March 2, 2009

To serve others, you need to get dirty... really dirty

This encouragement came many years later... hahaha...

I just added a long time friend whom I got to know thru Navteens... Lost touch with him when we pursue our studies.

What he told me left me encouraged... I didn't realised that what I did so many years ago when I was a teen... gave him a deep impression...

For those who are familiar to Navteens Annual training camp will know that every year before the actual camp start for the campers... the laborers and leaders will be there to clean up the campsite to welcome the campers...

One particular year in GMSS, while we were cleaning the canteen... we couldn't seems to clear the water into the sewage... I knew straight away that the drainage was clogged... everyone else doesn't really know what to do... what I did might gross out alot of other pple...hahaha...

I rolled up my sleeves and started dugging the clog in the drainage... i remembered my entire arm went in.... woohoo... I wasn't thinking about the dirty and stinky clog that will stay on my arm... all I know is that I need to do my job to make sure the canteen is clean...

I remembered quite a number of people was probably shocked by my sudden action... I couldn't care less... hahaha...

Only when my friend reminded me that incident... I understood that in order to serve others... sometimes we need to get our hands dirtied in the process...

Same as disciple-making... unless we are at the ground doing the work... if not we will never get the job done... many others ahead of me had already done that... that's why I am here today...

If my ex-bs leader didn't sacrifice his time for me and gave me bible study every friday evening. I will never know who Christ is... I will still be a useless guy that only know that I need to be rich and die with my riches...

I was given a new meaning to life... as a christian for the last 17 years, never have God forsaken me... his grace is always there... the only one who always fail is me... yet He is ever ready to forgive and strengthen me... In my deepest moments, He is always there to carry me through...

Unless I yield to Him... unless I surrender all my goals and inspirations to Him, else all my striving will turn into nothing... I can never fully feel satisfied nor be contented.



Raymond dreaming at 01:11:11 AM

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February 25, 2009

Blessings over reservist...

Something good did happen over my reservist... will blog more when I regain my energy from my rest.

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I shared my testimony during one of my sentry duties. Praise God... for the divine appointment. I prayed that the seed will be sowed into his heart... God will use my testimony to touch his heart...

I managed to cross my last obstacle for my marriage... now can go ahead and book my wedding banquet, church venue, notify the pastor, determine the cater, etc...

I looked forward to the whole wedding preparation...



Raymond dreaming at 02:48:46 PM

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February 22, 2009

Counting down to 5 more days...

5 more days and I will finish my reservist... Yipee...

I'm so glad it's going to be over... Praise God. I prayed so many times to keep my mind sound. I can't believe that I almost wasted my 24 days away... I have never felt so unproductive. Thankfully, during my off days I packed my schedule to meet at least a few clients, catch up with some of my friends, visit some of the desired wedding dinner venues.

So far, we already have in mind which hotel we will be using for my banquet. We are praying that our date will be approved by her mom... still praying for the right time to tell her about the wedding plans...



Raymond dreaming at 11:50:26 PM

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February 9, 2009

IQ dropped...

I realised my IQ level dropped after I wore the greens... my brain slowed down drastically... the way I process info, the way i type my sms... my brain seems to beginning to shut down...

One good thing worth commenting was I slimmed down abit... I can feel it... coz I didn't eat much when the food arrived...

Maybe wearing the greens... it has a slimming effect... hahaha...



Raymond dreaming at 06:46:06 PM

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February 6, 2009

My 6th reservist...

This time round... i dread going back coz it is 24 days of reservist... felt so cut off from the world... furthermore, this year there are many changes. Some changes cost quite alot of inconvenience to me...

Counting down my reservist so that I can properly adjust back to my life... heard there will be another one in Sept... I hope it's not true.


"God see me through this reservist... help me learn something out of it... "



Raymond dreaming at 11:55:12 PM

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January 26, 2009

Happy Niu Year

Happy Niu year to all my friends and readers...

Just came back from walk in chinatown... this year it wasn't as crowd as last year... more quiet this year... even the firework this year was such a disappointment... nothing to shout about. However, I'm still thankful that I got see it without anyone blocking me...

The week before CNY was rather tiring and stressful... I went in and out of the hospital 3 times. My mum had an infection her right eye... went to the A&E and they refer me to the eye specialist... if I was still in my preious job... probably i might be asked to leave...

With my current job, I'm glad that I can put things aside and accompany her to see the doc...
3 full day...

I'm glad that God gave us a wonderful female doc who was really patience and kind... Not only did she waivered off our 3rd consultancy... she saw my mom the first min she reached her room... Praise God for such a wonderful doc...

Mom is better now... but she is on long term medication for her right eye...

Do pray alongside with me... soon I won't be able to keep watch over her that often when I moved on with the next phase of my life...



Raymond dreaming at 02:15:27 AM

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